Life...

My pockets feel like parachutes: full of air
My credit card bill’s sky high, I can’t hide my despair
The cost of livin’ ain’t cheap; I’m knee deep in debt
The world is on my shoulders; life’s a blur of regret
All a part of life

Through my smile, I wear a frown
Got my chin up, but I’m looking down
Don’t nobody know my pain but me
I gotta press through the adversity
It’s all a part of life

The rain is pouring, but I gotta stick it out
To gain prosperity, but I’m having so much doubt
To where I’m headed in this reality of strife
I just shrug it off, and think “This is what they call life”

And I’m stuck in it without parole…

Stuck in a dead-end job, just waiting for the time to pass me by
Searching for peace within this chaos, hopin’ that the lie
That was my life would come back; save me from this
Harsh reality; never believed it when they said “Real Life Ain’t Bliss”

I know that my situation could be so much worse
Than what it is; the worst of my storm has almost passed
Lord, you said you’d never give me more than I can take
But I can’t help but to think that my storm will last

The rain is pouring, but I gotta stick it out
To gain prosperity, but I’m having so much doubt
To where I’m headed in this reality of strife
I just shrug it off, and think “This is what they call life”

And I’m stuck in it without parole…

I know that my situation could be so much worse
Than what it is; the worst of my storm has almost passed
Lord, you said you’d never give me more than I can take
But I can’t help but to think that my storm will last

The rain is pouring, but I gotta stick it out
To gain prosperity, but I’m having so much doubt
To where I’m headed in this reality of strife
I just shrug it off, and think “This is what they call life”

My pockets feel like parachutes: full of air
My credit card bill’s sky high, I can’t hide my despair
The cost of livin’ ain’t cheap; I’m knee deep in debt
The world is on my shoulders; life’s a blur of regret
All a part of life

iMissU

Love is a journey
Full of it’s ups and downs
It’s unpredictable
This love is buried
Six feet in the ground
Grief is inexplicable

I keep telling myself
That this is for the best
But the truth is…
I miss you

I was so naïve
Thought you were the one
Now I’m sitting here alone
You weren’t right for me
Fantasy come undone
You were all I’d ever known

I keep telling myself
That this is for the best
But the truth is…
I miss you

Unavoidable
We just grew apart
Nothing but trouble
All right from the start

Love is a journey
Full of it’s ups and downs
It’s unpredictable
This love is buried
Six feet in the ground
Grief is inexplicable

I keep telling myself
That this is for the best
But the truth is…
I miss you

Man Up

I’m usually a closed book
Yet I’m open like a field
Tossed to the side like a rook
In a chess game
How did I let this thing build
Into chaotic stillness
This feels like an illness
I gotta brush these feelings off

I gotta man up
I can’t let her see me hurt
I cannot let her see her affect on me
I gotta man up
I gotta dust off the dirt
Like I used to, and let it be

I gotta pack all my clothes, my gear
Grab my keys and toiletries and go from here
Find a place with tranquility
My soul is burning
So why am I yearning
For her touch…
I gotta brush these feelings off

I gotta man up
I can’t let her see me hurt
I cannot let her see her affect on me
I gotta man up
I gotta dust off the dirt
Like I used to, and let it be

Maybe someday I’ll find someone
To fill the void she left in me
Maybe someday
Someone will set my soul free
When I’m ready, I’ll find her
But I guess until then
I gotta brush these feelings off

I gotta man up
I can’t let her see me hurt
I cannot let her see her affect on me
I gotta man up
I gotta dust off the dirt
Like I used to, and let it be

Repaired

I’ll remove every ounce of pain from your soul
Try to get rid of your disdain
To take away loneliness from you is my goal
And you will be repaired when I’m through

I can see the pain in your eyes; please don’t hide
I won’t let it lead to your demise
Trust in me, it will be alright; let’s just ride
Darkness will give into the light

Baby, don’t fear
A broken heart (because)
I will be here
Never depart
You’re the only one for me

I’ll remove every ounce of pain from your soul
Try to get rid of your disdain
To take away loneliness from you is my goal
And you will be repaired when I’m through

Baby, don’t fear
A broken heart (because)
I will be here
Never depart from me
Baby, don’t fear
A broken heart (because)
I will be here
Never depart
You’re the only one for me

Love’s a two way street
Full of hills and valleys
Honey, rest your feet
Your pain, I’ll try to carry
You’ve helped me through storms over the years
And now it’s my turn
To ease your fears and dry your tears
Mend your heart, take your concerns
And make them disappear

Baby, don’t fear
A broken heart (because)
I will be here
Never depart from me
Baby, don’t fear
A broken heart (because)
I will be here
Never depart
You’re the only one for me

Average Thing

saw this lady out the corner of
my eye
strolling leisurely, gravity
defy
flipped her black hair back like
Naomi
a gleam in her eye like she wanna
show me
I can't get down like that, yet I
saunter
from my spot with my boys over
to her
introduced myself and asked for
her name...

and so the conversation

became
more than your
average thing
more than the
average fling
in an
average spring...

chatted a bit, found what we had in
common
musical tastes, the different bands that
i'm in-
to that she likes too
education,
careers, and fears we have as a
nation
really feeling this girl, not like the
others
i wanna take my time to
discover
the key to her steeze, and thank her
mother
for producing this dame...

as we
became
more than your
average thing
more than the
average fling
in an
average spring...

Lost Emotion

It’s like a maze
With twists and turns
Getting’ scraped and burned
An oxymoron in itself
A roller coaster
Without an end in sight
There’s no fight
In me; I’m losing my health

I wanna find
The state of mind
To be able to love
Wasting time
Nursing my wounds
And thinking of
The lost emotion

Loneliness shouldn’t suffice
Ambiguous clarity would be so nice
Calm as the ocean wide and deep
I search for a glimpse
Of its face
Or its scent
Time well spent
Just looking for its embrace

Venture with me
Into a world where love conquers all
Ride with me
Into a place where love isn’t my downfall
Valentine’s a memory; mistletoe
Extinct; so alone; no friend or foe
Could aid in the search
All I can do is think
Of my lost emotion...

I Gotta Go

Any move I make
It always seems to be a big mistake
In your dreams for me; I can't escape
God, deliver us from evil, for it rapes
me of my senses...

Lets put it on the table
Cuz the man you hoped I'd be is just a fable
The all-american male you see on cable
And the cost of loving you is the loss of my defenses...

I can't take much more of this insanity...

Lord, my soul is weak
Torn from the secrets of which I must not speak
Therefore I must escape or risk defeat
Or should I remain in the back seat
to spare their feelings...

Haunted by my past
How much longer will these feelings last
Or is my existence doomed to Alcatraz
Lord deliver us from evil, for I can't
continue dealing...
with this...

I gotta break free from this insane situation
I gotta break free; gotta find my destination
And depart from this place I used to call home
I gotta break free; I gotta go...

Goodbye

Burn me alive, yet I’m intact
No one can hurt me like you
The words you chose damaged my soul
Personal reconstruction is my plan

So I gotta say…

I gotta say…

Sometimes it’s best to sever the ties
Even though we have a history
And in order for me to succeed
I gotta control my own destiny

So I gotta say…

I gotta say…

There was a time when I needed you
A time when you were always on my mind
But now I’m stronger and wiser
And without you, I’ll be just fine

Burn me alive, yet I’m intact
No one can hurt me like you
The words you chose damaged my soul
Personal reconstruction is my plan

So I gotta say…

I gotta say…

...goodbye.